रेथ..

ऐ वक्त , ज़रा सा थम जा
इन पलों को जीने तो दे

बहुत कुछ छूटा जा रहा है
ज़रा मुड़कर पीछे देखने तो दे

लोगों की इस भाग दौड़ के बीच
एक सुकून का लम्हा तो दे

तनाव के तो बहुत कारण हैं
एक हसी की वजह तो दे

घर से तो बहुत दूर हैं अपने
घर की याद करने का समय तो दे

माँ तरसती है हमारी आवाज़ सुनने को
माँ को माँ बुलाने का वक्त तो दे

लाखों की भीड़ में भी
तन्हाई का एहसास न होने दे

अभी तो सफर बस शुरू हुआ है
अभी से ही थका हुआ महसूस न होने दे

ऐ वक्त , ज़रा सा थम जा
इन पलों को जीने तो दे े

stealing time...

Sometimes I feel that life is passing me by, not slowly either, but with ropes of steam and spark-spattered wheels and a hoarse roar of power or terror. It's passing, yet I'm the one who's doing all the moving. ~Martin Amis, Money

I recollected 5 mins back that I had a blog! Its been a while since I last posted.

When was the last I watched a movie ?.... Aug mid (Dark knight)
When was the last I watched an episode of Voice of India? ....22nd July.
When was the last I caught up with my friends and had a bhaat session?.... uumm..don't remember!
To top it all....Its been a week since a friend borrowed my speakers...so I've gone musicless for a week!!

OMG !!! Am I really so busy, or am I just not able to manage my time?

I've neva had so much to write about... gone through a lot these 2 weeks.. lots of ups n downs, new experiences, survival on a 1hr daily sleep, 1st publicity trip...

Anyways, gotta go ! likhna shuru karunga toh mahabharat ban jayegi!
afterall, who has the time to read something as stupid as random blogs ? :P heheee...

Its only words...n words are all i have....

There's a quote.."actions speak louder than words". But its sometimes words that touch your heart.. words said by a person, or words of a poem... or for that matter, lyrics of a song.

I still have those pieces of chart papers treasured, on which my friends penned their thoughts, on the hall day last year. I remember the poem word by word, which a very dear friend of mine wrote for me.

Some songs are very special and very close to my heart.

Kya bataoon maa kahan hoon main
Yahan udney ko mere khula aasmaan hai
Tere kisson jaisa bhola salona
jahan hain yahan sapno vala
Meri patang ho befikar udd rahi hai maa
Dor koi loote nahin beech se kaate na

These words from the song Lukka Chuppi somehow always manage to moisten my eyes everytime I listen to this song.

Well, coming to romantic mood (although I am a big flop at this :P), some songs are so cute that for once, you start believing that this madness called LOVE really exists!

for example, the song "TUM SE HI" from jab we met. It is so mesmerizing that you actually want to experience the feelings conveyed in the song.

hum labon se keh na paye, unse haal-e-dil kabhi
aur woh samjhe nahi, yeh khamoshi kya cheez hai

And then there are songs to comfort you...coz heartbreaks are quite a possibility!!

shama kahe parwane se, pare chala jaa
meri tarah jal jayega, yahan nahi aa

woh nahi sunta, usko jal jaana hota hai
har khushi se har gum se begaana hota hai

Folks, it was your choice. No one forced it upon you. Take the positives out of it..and move on!!

Coming to some optimistic poetry, the songs 'aashayein' and 'allah ke bande' are very special for me. When I had taken a drop for JEE, I often used to feel depressed. And believe me, these songs used to comfort me a lot and give me positive energy.

Well, there are many many songs with ossome lyrics .. like.. ek pyar ka naghma hai, tujhse naraz nahi zindagi, jab koi baat bigad jaye,etc.. which are soothing, inspiring and sometimes heart-rending.

I believe that words have a power that is unmatched. And some songs are so beautifully written that they can make you smile in difficult times, and sometimes serve as a very good inspiration and motivation.

Finally I would like to quote these lines from the song,'main pal do pal ka shayar hoon'.. which would be a fitting tribute to all those great poets and lyricists who affect our lives in such a beautiful way.

Kal aur aayenge, naghmon ki khilti kaliyan chunne waale
Mujhse behtar kehne waale, tum se behtar sunne waale

Woh bhi ek pal ka kissa hain, main bhi is pal ka kissa hoon
Kal tumse judaa ho jaaunga , woh aaj tumhara hissa hoon

Changes.....

Why am I not calling up home frequently? Why I am not listening to music? Why am I not talking to old friends? Why aren't things affecting me the way they used to? Why am I not feeling the need for someone's support? Why am I not feeling the need of a friend to share everything with? Is it that I am not getting time, or I am not trying to find time? Am I growing stronger or weaker? But 1 thing's for sure... I am changing.

An infinite ocean lay in front of me
It was me who didn't know where to dive;
I found a number of roads ahead
I didn't know on which to take a drive.

It was then I was forced to believe
There's something called destiny or fate;
Why take the trouble of anything at all
Its afterall somebody else's decision
Not yours, mate !

People say its very difficult to change your attitude. But sometimes, circumstances make you change your attitude.. and that too, for the better! So, I'd like to conclude the poem on a positive note. (If its qualified enuf to be called a poem :P)

As my mind builds up the confidence
And my heart gathers the courage
I realise that my life is my own
Not taken by anyone else as hostage

Enough of being a coward
I've now got it straight;
Its me, and only me
who'll shape my destiny
Not anyone else, mate!

thanksgiving..

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."

On the occasion of friendship day, this is a thanksgiving to all my dear frnds... who've been a part of my life right from K.G and uptil now. Thankfully I've been blessed enough to be gifted with the most wonderful friends.. be it the school days, or now, here at IIT.

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
- Anais Nin


Now that I am staying away from home, u guys have been a real support..and a wonderful family. I had never imagined that I could get so attached to people outside my family, that I wud miss them at home during vacations!

Well, I dont have much to say today. Words have failed me. Just wanna tell all my frnds.. that u mean the world to me. I look up to u all for support, inspiration, sharing joys n sorrows.. and want u all to know that I trust u a lot and want u all to trust and have faith in me too! will neva let u ppl down!


cheers!

WHY SO SERIOUS.....

Whoa.. 1 hell of a movie.. THE DARK KNIGHT.. Want to see more of Joker.. He brought the screen alive with his sadism, sarcasm, dark humor and above all.. the all-for-fun attitude! Do I look like a guy with a plan? Hell, no!

1 more thing I realised 2day is that I seriously need an image makeover. Its like I AM SERIOUS is written all over my face. Even a senior who saw me for the first time, goes.. "itna serious kyu rehte ho bhai?" Can someone teach me how to smile? :P How do I let ppl know that I am just another fun loving guy.. who prefers to listen more than to speak. Shit! paka raha hoon kya?


In todays mess interaction with seniors..

"Abhi soke aae ho kya"
"Haan, sir"
"Lagta hai kaafi sote ho"
"Nahi sir, sirf 5 ghante "

(today's was a rare case when I fell asleep in the evening)

"sirf 5 ghante? raat ko kab sote ho?"
"sir, around 1:30 - 2:00"
"aur tab tak kya karte ho?"

Shit ! I have no answer! Cmon, kuch accha sa soch.. kuchh to...


"sir, googling, gtalking, blogging.."

they lauf. I realise how jobless I am. Not doing anything, anything at all! Na padhai, na khel-kud, na exercise.. kuch constructive nahi. I feel really ashamed. Ab se kuch toh karna padega... And, to think of, I am serious ! loll.. how badly ppl misinterpret me. I look serious but I am not. How I wish it was the opposite!!!


Oh yes! My cousin bro, Shivam , started an ossome blog, THE SUPERTRAMP DIARIES.. and wrote that he got inspired after reading my blog! I was glad to know that sometimes I can be an inspiration too :) Although, I do this stuff coz m jobless and have all the time in the world..

1 bright side. I am bunkning less classes than in the previous semester. But for a not-so-bright reason. I get to meet my friends, who are now in other hostels! Fluid mech mein harsh,palash... Maths mein praveen, arpit, kakrania,prashant... I look forward to these classes only to meet these chums of mine.. fir last benches pe bhaat maarte hain!!


Sometimes I feel I am very unfit for IIT.. can never be a technical person... want something artistic and creative.. khair, abhi aisa nahi sochna chahiye..
On a lighter note, I cant wait for the soc-cult season to start! Music, drams, dance...thats the stuff for me.. hehheeee

Btw, wats happened to federer? neva seen him losing 1st, 2nd rounds. Although being a huge Rafa fan, I always want a nadal-federer final. Anyway, this sunday, Nadal's gonna replace him at the top of the rankings. Thats some feat! Ending a glorious 4 1/2 yr streak ! Vamos rafaaa......!!!!!

Thats it for now.. gonna watch exorcist and evil dead back-to-back, till 5 in the morn. daudne jaana hai :( cant afford sleepin now.. uthne ki koi guarantee nahi !

wish me luck :)

bRakes n bites..

reading 3 mistakes of my life, watching AAMIR and KHUDA KE LIYE... and then these bomb blasts in bangalore and Ahmedabad... made me realise how unpredictable life is.

I cant help but remember these lines from the beautiful song "mehfuz" from Aamir..

kya majaal teri marzi ke aage
bando ki chal jayegi
thaame jab tu ungli, katputli ki
chaal badal jayegi

So, its better not to get perplexed by the mysteries of life and death.. and keep flowing with the tide for the moment. We can just pray to God for mercy...



meanwhile.. 1st week in kgp was very eventful.
RK hall, my abode for the coming 3 yrs.. aah! i consider myself lucky to be an RKite!
It took 2-3 days to settle down...got our room cleaned and painted...ekdum chamka diya !

1st week was eventful even more for Harsh, my dear frnd.. who's havin KISMAT DISCONNECTION.. :P

I particularly remember a fateful day whenn......

harsh is takin bath.. manyu passes him shampoo and soap..only for them to land straight into the drain ! damn !

he's checkin his grades after takin bath.

CREDITS CLEARED: 23/24

hold on !! 23 ??? was it right??
1 credit... NCC???? cant bee...

shit! failed in NCC. he phones kapoor. " kapoor yeh bata.. NCC mein F ka matlab kya hota hai?" his name was in backlog students.

he asked a senior wat to do? his reply was "u've created a history of sort"

and then, after making rounds to NCC office, he came to Tikka only to have 2 glasses of mango shake emptied on his brand new shirt !

In the evening, we r havin gulab jamuns in our room. oops! the jar tilts on to the bed... and all the juice (chhaashni) in flowing on harsh's bedsheet ! yucckkk....
he lifts his bedsheet only to drip the juice onto his mattress!!! and then, for half an hour, he's searching for the lid of the jar... when finally it turns out from the bedsheet kept outside. frustration at its peak...

As Harsh's Kismat Disconnection enters into its 2nd week... lets wait n watch whats in store for him!

one evening harsh enters the room beaming !!

"abbey itna khush kyu hai?"
" arre aaj pata hai , hamne lab mein bhindi ugayi"

me n manyu exchange glances.. giving each other a dont-laugh-loud look !
is this what ppl r made to do in agri labs? plant grains n vegetables?

Meanwhile, i got a pleasant surprise! even after including breadth subjects, 4 afternoons off! jannat yahaaan !!!!!

On sunday, we had our 1st OP session. I personally enjoyed it a lot.. it seriously teaches self control.. and m lukin forward to leading a disciplined life in the coming months! Harsh ke tempo shout ne toh seriously hall-tempo ke 2 extra doses inject kar diye !

And yes! Finally the HTDS clan met after 3 long months... twas ossome to see evry1 in the same spirits.. felt like a closely-knit family. Chaity da's CHILE experiences were quite interesting :P

1 more unforgettable event was the dinner at Bakes n Bites. Harsh made me,swaty n anubha laugh our guts out! And the family dosa! OMG...it was a sight to watch ! i've neva seen such a long dosaa!! it spread across the table side-to-side! oopar photo bhi dala hai !


hah! chalo kafi ho gaya.. log bolte hain ki tu itna lamba likha mat kar. Par kya karoon yaar.. haath chalne band hi nahi hote !~!

@kushank,diggi: sorry fir khapane ke liye!

Anyway, i just hope evrything goes well this week...no bomb-blast type incidents plzz... and yes..

miss u mom...miss u dad.. miss u di... love u all a lottt!!