Confessions...

as I flow with the tide of time
trying to adjust to its merciless pace
abashed, misled, perplexed and dazed
my heart remains sealed; all closed n safe.

as I am tossed on a frying pan
all my dreams going topsy-turvy
passions been killed and marauded
my heart remains sealed; the fire within ablaze.

as people enter the spectrum of life
some of them touching the soul and healing it
but even before realising, its time for good-byes
my heart remains sealed; memories crying for space.

as I lay down,preoccupied with my thoughts
ignorant of the path which lies ahead
watching myself falling into a deep pit
my heat remains sealed; looking out for ways.

as the sun rises again, dispersing the depressing darkness
i look into the mirror staring at my own eyes
i STILL see a spark in them, like a tinge of the sunlight
my heart remains sealed; the hope STILL prevails....

let us celebrate love...

Hello friends. Been a long time. This being the valentine's week, I somehow couldn't help getting romantic :P So I thought of writing a poem.

This is for all those people who have ever fallen in love.... this is a poem celebrating this wonderful emotion called love... (and please don't think I'm in love or stuff lyk that, its just the feeling I've tried to capture.. I hope u guys like it)

Some say it makes life beautiful

While some say it is life

Some say it has no reasons

For some it is the reason to be alive

In mother’s hug, in dad’s advice

In sister’s concern, in lover’s eyes

For brightening our lives in every way

Come, let us celebrate love today.

The reasonless smiles; the sleepless nights;

The endless chats; the petty fights

The long walks under the soft moonlit sky

The hands held together; the hearts beating high

The stars in the sky and the heartbeat say

Come, let us celebrate love today.

When her thoughts are with you all along

When you dedicate to her your every song

When she inspires you and makes you strong

When you feel it is only you to whom she can belong

This is the power of love, and it has come to play

Come, let us celebrate love today.

In all the dreams and all the prayers

In all the smiles and the silent tears

In every beautiful sunrise and every ray of moonlight

In every song I sing and every poem I write

The presence is felt each moment night and day

Come, let us celebrate love today.

Time goes on; life changes its ways

But true love is forever and it always stays

When someone starts residing in your heart

However hard one may try, it’s very difficult to part.

From my heart no one can take you away

Come, let us celebrate love today.

TIME OUT ... :)

After 4 hectic, mentally draining, tiring, sleepless, tense months... I finally got 1 free weekend :)
And yes! I managed to make the most of it... thnx to my buddies manyu n akshay (kapoor).

We ppl, who met on the 1st day in Kgp (22nd July, 2007 !!)... were at my place together... still the closest of frnds, that we were in the 1st year. I am lucky to retain most of my frnds from 1st yr.. some being hall mates, some Kshitij members... and others.. we keep catchin' up frequently !

Talking about the weekend, we started off on saturday evening , after Manyu had finally arrived. ( Read: 'finally'- thats coz he had already missed two trains to hyd !).

What can be better than getting treats from Kgp seniors in metros :P We had Sarvesh and our S. Com Karishma with us. We met up at eatstreet and treated ourselves to some delicious pizzas, pastas and garlic breads! It was one of the finest pastas I had tasted. yummy!! Ossome food that was....

We followed it up by watchin' a 3d movie at IMAX. Was an amazin experience! But the best part was GODZILLA !! Godzilla is an ossome icecream with 6 scoops of the choiciest flavours placed one over the other along with fruits, jellies, caramels, chocolate sauce n wafers.... in the shape of a godzilla... seriously mindblowing ! Thnx to Sarvesh and Karishma , we had a fantastic evening!

And then today... we decided to cool our heels at OCEAN PARK ! Aaah.. water rides are simply irresistible! You can climb up the stairs again and again to slide down...twisting, turning and twirling.... also the wave pool was enjoyable.. I was in water after a real long time.. ( last time at Puri in March).. I stayed in the pool for abt 2 hrs.... swimming, floating, n practicing the strokes....... dint want to come out at all!!

In the afternoon we played snooker and table tennis.... and had a nice long drive. I was enjoyin driving on the new highways n the outer ring road...

Well.. I don't remember when was the last we chilled out like we did this weekend! On a serious note, this break was more than needed to charge us up. Our batteries had been running down of late..

And not to forget... m also missing Kgp these holidays a lot.. not for its peaceful life, or my hostel life,.. but for some of my very good frnds.. some old.. and some news ones made this semester!..

Rohit n Mihir.. m missin u guys yaar.. ( yo RK !!). we've shared all our frustration, sorrow, anger, tension... and... some jokes.. funny moments... small moments of happiness..laughter ! U ppl hav really become very close frnds of mine in a short span of 3 months... thnx to ktj for givin me such brilliant colleagues and even more wonderful frnds... same goes out to other ppl in our team.... Oye Praveen.. if u read this.. m missin u too man!

Chalo.. lemme wind up here.. btw long time since I've posted... hope people remember that this blog exists :P

And yes.. not forgetting to include the musical element, I thank Manan for makin me hear AIR SUPPLY. I've simply got addicted to their songs... especially... 'here I am', 'making love out of nothing at all', and 'two less lonely people in the world'. Ossome lyrix and tune... whoever reads this..plzz here these songs once. U'll like them too... :)

Jannat yahan !

Kgp is heaven !!!

Believe me, after spending 10 days among concrete jungles, endless traffic, fast streets, ear-blowing vehicle horns, pinching headlights, emotionless faces, melancholic and monotonic lifestyle, hours of travel, polluted air.....   Kgp seems so fresh, so full of life, cheerfulness !!!

M afraid how will I adjust after passing out 2 yrs from now...  I've got so very used to this peaceful place that cities are a big turn off now. 

The two day halt at hyd was a pleasant one !  The Kshitij workshop rocked, there was an ossome treat, plus I got to eat "mummy ke haath ka khaana"  :)      And yeah..  "Dark Knight" at IMAX is a whole new experience compared to our laptop screens..  

I've got addicted to the music of rock on!   from 'socha hai' to 'sindbad the sailor' to 'pichle saat dino'... evry song is simply awesome!!   

I wanna sing out loud to someone  :P

Tum Ho To Gaata Hai Dil, Tum Nahin To Geet Kahan.. Tum Ho To Hai Sab Haasil, Tum Nahin To Kya Hai Yahan.. Tum Ho To Hai Sapno Ke Jaisa Haseen Ek Sama… Jo Tum Ho To Yeh Lagta Hai Ke Mil Gayi.. Har Khushi Jo Tum Na Ho Yeh Lagta Hai Ke Har Khushi.. Mein Hai Kami Tumko Hai Maangti Yeh Zindagi….

Ooooooooo..Ooooooo….Ooooooo

BANGALORE BLUES : PART 2

Finally found time to give my  2^nd Bangalore update; thanks to my ill health and also today being a Sunday.

I’d like to tell you all that after getting used to KGP life ,Bangalore is a little rude to your wallets. They might get offended for getting empty so frequently !

Yesterday was another interesting day. To start on a bright note, I met two RKites (hallmates) among the alumni, one of them being my ex-wingie.  He had some nostalgic talk with me about his KGP days and the rivalry between halls. One of them asked me if Patel Hall was still the most “reputed”. I nodded my head in agreement. 

We also visited the Bangalore Chapter KGP alumni meet, where we found alums of various batches together.  It was such a pleasant feeling to meet them and invite them to Kshitij 2009. We showed them the documentary about how huge Kshitij had grown in a short span of 4 years.

I had another appointment at 8 pm.  After collecting a cheque from him, I started back for Majestic.  At Majestic, I went to a Chinese restaurant and gorged upon my favs chowmein n Manchuria.

The day went well. I was quite satisfied. I happily boarded the bus back to Mysore Road.  I was looking dreamily outside the window………   people……………….crowds…………..lights………….vehicles,……..…vendors………flyovers……malls…girls……. ..   ..   …   alumni….cheques……..presentations………..publicity……………email ids………………media offices……………      “I am sorry I can’t contribute this time.. I’ve given my word to SF”…..some rapid Kannada….. !    WAIT !   why Kannada now?  Then I realize somebody shaking my body. It was the conductor trying to wake me up. I dint realize while looking outside when I had fallen asleep.!  Perhaps, maybe it was the lack of sleep over 5 days. 

I look around. The bus is empty; with lots of empty parked buses around. The conductor helps me get down and then disappears somewhere.  I look at the bus no.   ….  ..    225 C  ..    damn..    This culprit bus strikes again. Wasn’t it 226C when I got in? Perhaps, I was mistken!   I come out to find myself at the entrance of RAJA RAJESHWARI BUS DEPOT !    The same spot where I had been on my 1^st day in Bangy. Perhaps, those who’ve read the previous post would understand the irony of the situation. I look into my mobile for time.   It shows..   00:00.   Now this toasted my spirits !!

I come to realize the gravity of the situation. I am here, around 10 kms from my hostel, at 12 midnight,  with Rs 2000 cash, my ATM card, a freshly received  cheque, with  no human living forms in sight, in an unknown locale, in an unknown city……    A shiver goes down my spine….

 

 

I walk alone on a dim lit road.. still no humans in sight… the only moving things being visible in the form of street dogs.  I don’t remember when was the last when I was such shit scared…   I was praying all my gods.. my legs were going numb.  I managed to find a main road on which occasionally some vehicle crossed by. I was apprehensive about asking for a drop. 

Then I saw 3 people of my age far off, discussing something. I approached them and asked them how would I reach ISI hostel. They were also engineering students.  After 10-15 mins of discussion, one of them went into his house, got out his pulsar, and indicated me to sit behind.  Thank God !!!!

On the way back, he told me not to venture out at such hours in the night. The area was not safe and no mode of transportation would be available.

My nightmare didn’t end there. He wasn’t allowed to drive a bike on the highway. There would be patrol vans and this guy didn’t have the required papers. So I had to walk 2 kms on the highway again. It was as scary as it could get. Vehicles were zooming past at lightning speed. Trucks were roaring by…cars were zipping by…   There was pitch black darkness but for the headlights of vehicles. Far in the distance to the left, I could see  a train moving lazily, blowing  a loud horn, reminding me of the common scenes in horror movies.

Finally, after enduring what must have been the scariest walk of my life, hushing past some drunkards and tip-toeing past the fierce street dogs, I reached the ISI gate. The sight of the gate breathed life back into me.  I felt like a survivor; as if I had just escaped from a crocodile’s jaws. Perhaps, to think of it, anything could have happened. The very thought of all this makes me shiver while typing.

The daily walk from ISI gate to hostel through a jungle, which used to scare my wits out, now seemed like a big relief. The hooting owls and the crawling scorpions seemed to welcome me back.  I reached my room at 1:30 in the dark

One more thing..all of you plzz pray that mera bukhaar utar jaye.. got loadsa work to do :(

So this was the 2^nd edition of my Bangalore adventures. All I can say is, it was perhaps not the best time to catch up on sleep !

BANG BANG BANGALORE : part 1

bangalore mein kaam to chal hi raha hai... but not havin a share of masti ????  out of question!!

this is some uncut uncesnsored bhaat from bangy !!

Partner in mischief : Abhimanyu Dikshit

Scene 1:    venue: Majestic Bus Stop

        ENTER:  me n manyu, with 2 trolleys, 2 lappies, 2 hand bags,
and 1 packet containing all the bangy ktj posters

                     We r left alone....we take a bus ( no. 225 C)
(pls see: bus number is significant :P). to Mysore road


Scene 2:   Bapuraonagar Bus Stop


   The conductor throws us out, saying we will have to take another
bus from here.  We have 5 secs to get off.  We have a soft drink. And
then.....


 Akshay:  Oye Manyu, posters ka packet???/

Manyu:       (gives a halu look)... kahan hai?

Akshay:   .   225 C !!

Manyu:  chhod..peace maar

Akshay:  I cant afford to loose the  posters

Manyu: Chal main enquiry pe baat karke aata hoon

(after 5 mins)

Manyu : Chal auto pakad

Akshay, Manyu:
autoooooooooooooooooooo  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1

  bhaiyyyaaa.... jalidi   fast.... 225 C route.......

        follow......... peecha karo !~!!

 we board the auto with 2 trolleys, 2 lappies , 2 hand bags.... but
without the packet with the posters




SCENE 3:   In auto, on way'

Manyu:  Yaar , Swapnil aur heads ke posters to unke pass honge
naa...woh kahan hain?

Akshay:  225 C mein... happily travelling somewhere !
Akshay: Yaar manyu... main to c***  gaya.   Koi masst sa reason soch

Manyu:   bolna .. ": Sir, our auto sir....  sir it overturned sir...
in the naala sir...    sir poster naale mein sir... aur hum bhi naale
mein sir...  poster to fir aa jaate... par aapka yeh core team
member.... nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Manyu: Yaar aaj tujhe vodka ko jarurat hogi

Akshay:  Aur d***o ki bhi ...  ( hehheee haa
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....haa..haa.....  )

Akshay: main has raha hoon kyuki main ro nahi sakta !!

 We are laufin our a***s off...        PPL should learn from us how to
laugh in crunch situations..

( MEANWHILE.... DONT ASK ABOUT THE AUTO METER !!    har 2 second pe 50
paise badh raha tha)



SCENE 4:   RAJA RAJESHWARI BUS DEPOT

after a 1/2 an hour auto ride, costing us over 100 bucks, we reach
this damn depot, located in some corner of the world.   Security guard
swears at us... in some rapid Kannada...which halued us more than
bong !   (seriously, yahan ke log bongs se jyada halu hain)...  fir
Manyu goes in, while i am looking at the incoming/outgoing buses  and
of course,   the 2 trolleys, the 2 lappies and the 2 handbags...and
not the packet with the bangy posters....

After 1/2 an hour of waiting, praying, giving up hopes, frustappa,,
thinking of reasons,... Manyu appears.. with a smile that radiated
from miles away...l.. and in a flash i understood...i glanced down...
YES>>............he had the red packet with the posters !!!!!

Yoooo hooooo... the bus was in the depot,,,awating its wash...


We finally get into our auto... with the 2 trolleys, 2 lappies, 2
handbags,  AND, after 2 hrs of judaai, WITH THE PACKET OF BANGY KTJ
POSTERS !!

...bhaiiya.,...thnk u... ab hamein auto se hi ISI le chalo.... may god
fcuk the buses.....









SO PPL/....YEH THA BANGY ADVENTURES PART 1....   ( btw, auto ka cost
was  INR 200 and the same distance cost us INR 8 in  a bus, later in
the evening !! )

hum log itna frusst hue ki raat ko... we went to dominos.... had 4
pizzaasss...garlic bread...  aur fir,     ek pub dikha... ( aage ka
part censored...    ssssssshhhhhhhhhhh  !! )

LIFE GETTING TOUGHER.. N M ENJOYIN IT !! ;)

क्यों खोये खोये चाँद की फिराक में तलाश में उदास है दिल

क्यों अपने आप से ज़रा खफा ज़रा ज़रा सा नाराज़ है दिल

ये मंजिलें भी ख़ुद ही तय करे, ये फासले भी ख़ुद ही तय करे

क्यों तो रास्तों पे फ़िर सहेम सहेम संभल संभल के चलता है ये दिल ... .



Satisfaction is a mirage. The more you come closer to it, the further it moves away from you.
Time is what we want most, but... what we use worst.

Time is the most undefinable yet paradoxical of things; the past is gone, the future is not come, and the present becomes the past even while we attempt to define it, and, like the flash of lightning, at once exists and expires. ~Charles Caleb Colt

In this practical world, there is no room for fantasy. No point in pondering over what you didn't do and what you could have done. Life is moving at a merciless pace. Yes! Life is getting tougher. And I am enjoying it too ~!!

These two months have probably been the fastest months of my life. It seems like just a few days back I had walked in with my suitcases.. and now I realize we are half way through the semester! Talking about the months being fastest, I must not forget to mention, eventful too !

New hall, making new friends, catching up with old ones, departmental studies, OP, delights, heartbreaks, Kshitij Core Team, n now mid sems...... everything seems to have happened in a jiffy! And now I come to terms with all this... and realize.. that the excitement has only begun! There's a lot in store.

Talking about a lot being in store, I am a hell lot excited about my forthcoming Bangalore trip during the Dussera Vacations. Though I won't be able to go home, it will be a whole new experience for me, going as an organizing team member of the largest techno-management fest of Asia and publicizing our fest!


I am in the process of learning the hard and practical way of living life. And I am finding it really comfortable. Its a pleasant change when I don't have to think a 1000 times and weigh all the pros n cons before taking my decisions. And I am lucky that I now have the required company and support of my friends and seniors to guide me through any troubles. Well, to say, I have never felt so optimistic in the past few months! I am ready..and raring to go !!!


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