Its only words...n words are all i have....

There's a quote.."actions speak louder than words". But its sometimes words that touch your heart.. words said by a person, or words of a poem... or for that matter, lyrics of a song.

I still have those pieces of chart papers treasured, on which my friends penned their thoughts, on the hall day last year. I remember the poem word by word, which a very dear friend of mine wrote for me.

Some songs are very special and very close to my heart.

Kya bataoon maa kahan hoon main
Yahan udney ko mere khula aasmaan hai
Tere kisson jaisa bhola salona
jahan hain yahan sapno vala
Meri patang ho befikar udd rahi hai maa
Dor koi loote nahin beech se kaate na

These words from the song Lukka Chuppi somehow always manage to moisten my eyes everytime I listen to this song.

Well, coming to romantic mood (although I am a big flop at this :P), some songs are so cute that for once, you start believing that this madness called LOVE really exists!

for example, the song "TUM SE HI" from jab we met. It is so mesmerizing that you actually want to experience the feelings conveyed in the song.

hum labon se keh na paye, unse haal-e-dil kabhi
aur woh samjhe nahi, yeh khamoshi kya cheez hai

And then there are songs to comfort you...coz heartbreaks are quite a possibility!!

shama kahe parwane se, pare chala jaa
meri tarah jal jayega, yahan nahi aa

woh nahi sunta, usko jal jaana hota hai
har khushi se har gum se begaana hota hai

Folks, it was your choice. No one forced it upon you. Take the positives out of it..and move on!!

Coming to some optimistic poetry, the songs 'aashayein' and 'allah ke bande' are very special for me. When I had taken a drop for JEE, I often used to feel depressed. And believe me, these songs used to comfort me a lot and give me positive energy.

Well, there are many many songs with ossome lyrics .. like.. ek pyar ka naghma hai, tujhse naraz nahi zindagi, jab koi baat bigad jaye,etc.. which are soothing, inspiring and sometimes heart-rending.

I believe that words have a power that is unmatched. And some songs are so beautifully written that they can make you smile in difficult times, and sometimes serve as a very good inspiration and motivation.

Finally I would like to quote these lines from the song,'main pal do pal ka shayar hoon'.. which would be a fitting tribute to all those great poets and lyricists who affect our lives in such a beautiful way.

Kal aur aayenge, naghmon ki khilti kaliyan chunne waale
Mujhse behtar kehne waale, tum se behtar sunne waale

Woh bhi ek pal ka kissa hain, main bhi is pal ka kissa hoon
Kal tumse judaa ho jaaunga , woh aaj tumhara hissa hoon

Changes.....

Why am I not calling up home frequently? Why I am not listening to music? Why am I not talking to old friends? Why aren't things affecting me the way they used to? Why am I not feeling the need for someone's support? Why am I not feeling the need of a friend to share everything with? Is it that I am not getting time, or I am not trying to find time? Am I growing stronger or weaker? But 1 thing's for sure... I am changing.

An infinite ocean lay in front of me
It was me who didn't know where to dive;
I found a number of roads ahead
I didn't know on which to take a drive.

It was then I was forced to believe
There's something called destiny or fate;
Why take the trouble of anything at all
Its afterall somebody else's decision
Not yours, mate !

People say its very difficult to change your attitude. But sometimes, circumstances make you change your attitude.. and that too, for the better! So, I'd like to conclude the poem on a positive note. (If its qualified enuf to be called a poem :P)

As my mind builds up the confidence
And my heart gathers the courage
I realise that my life is my own
Not taken by anyone else as hostage

Enough of being a coward
I've now got it straight;
Its me, and only me
who'll shape my destiny
Not anyone else, mate!

thanksgiving..

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."

On the occasion of friendship day, this is a thanksgiving to all my dear frnds... who've been a part of my life right from K.G and uptil now. Thankfully I've been blessed enough to be gifted with the most wonderful friends.. be it the school days, or now, here at IIT.

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
- Anais Nin


Now that I am staying away from home, u guys have been a real support..and a wonderful family. I had never imagined that I could get so attached to people outside my family, that I wud miss them at home during vacations!

Well, I dont have much to say today. Words have failed me. Just wanna tell all my frnds.. that u mean the world to me. I look up to u all for support, inspiration, sharing joys n sorrows.. and want u all to know that I trust u a lot and want u all to trust and have faith in me too! will neva let u ppl down!


cheers!

WHY SO SERIOUS.....

Whoa.. 1 hell of a movie.. THE DARK KNIGHT.. Want to see more of Joker.. He brought the screen alive with his sadism, sarcasm, dark humor and above all.. the all-for-fun attitude! Do I look like a guy with a plan? Hell, no!

1 more thing I realised 2day is that I seriously need an image makeover. Its like I AM SERIOUS is written all over my face. Even a senior who saw me for the first time, goes.. "itna serious kyu rehte ho bhai?" Can someone teach me how to smile? :P How do I let ppl know that I am just another fun loving guy.. who prefers to listen more than to speak. Shit! paka raha hoon kya?


In todays mess interaction with seniors..

"Abhi soke aae ho kya"
"Haan, sir"
"Lagta hai kaafi sote ho"
"Nahi sir, sirf 5 ghante "

(today's was a rare case when I fell asleep in the evening)

"sirf 5 ghante? raat ko kab sote ho?"
"sir, around 1:30 - 2:00"
"aur tab tak kya karte ho?"

Shit ! I have no answer! Cmon, kuch accha sa soch.. kuchh to...


"sir, googling, gtalking, blogging.."

they lauf. I realise how jobless I am. Not doing anything, anything at all! Na padhai, na khel-kud, na exercise.. kuch constructive nahi. I feel really ashamed. Ab se kuch toh karna padega... And, to think of, I am serious ! loll.. how badly ppl misinterpret me. I look serious but I am not. How I wish it was the opposite!!!


Oh yes! My cousin bro, Shivam , started an ossome blog, THE SUPERTRAMP DIARIES.. and wrote that he got inspired after reading my blog! I was glad to know that sometimes I can be an inspiration too :) Although, I do this stuff coz m jobless and have all the time in the world..

1 bright side. I am bunkning less classes than in the previous semester. But for a not-so-bright reason. I get to meet my friends, who are now in other hostels! Fluid mech mein harsh,palash... Maths mein praveen, arpit, kakrania,prashant... I look forward to these classes only to meet these chums of mine.. fir last benches pe bhaat maarte hain!!


Sometimes I feel I am very unfit for IIT.. can never be a technical person... want something artistic and creative.. khair, abhi aisa nahi sochna chahiye..
On a lighter note, I cant wait for the soc-cult season to start! Music, drams, dance...thats the stuff for me.. hehheeee

Btw, wats happened to federer? neva seen him losing 1st, 2nd rounds. Although being a huge Rafa fan, I always want a nadal-federer final. Anyway, this sunday, Nadal's gonna replace him at the top of the rankings. Thats some feat! Ending a glorious 4 1/2 yr streak ! Vamos rafaaa......!!!!!

Thats it for now.. gonna watch exorcist and evil dead back-to-back, till 5 in the morn. daudne jaana hai :( cant afford sleepin now.. uthne ki koi guarantee nahi !

wish me luck :)